Last night I came to bed later than usual, around 11pm. My usual routine is to read for a while, so I turned out the light at 11:45pm. No sooner had I settled under the covers, laying on my left side with my back to SLY, he reached over and draped his arm over me. What just happened? After nearly 4 1/2 years he reaches over and touches me. My body froze and my heart began racing. I felt nervous and anxious. It took quite a while for me to settle down and fall asleep.
I have always wanted to have someone sleep next to me like this, a simple draped arm.
Tonight while making dinner SLY says last night he had a dream he won the lottery and bought a new truck. He woke up and saw his arm on me. He started laughing. So I asked him if the arm was a "please can I keep it?" He laughed again and said he didnt know, was just surprised to have his arm on me. I told him apparently the only way he would sleep that way is if he wins the dream lottery.
And that was it.
I don't know what to think. Being touched makes me nauseous, I have a negative physical response to touch. How did I get to this place? That is a post for another day.
